I’ve been crashing out physically for the last two months and didn’t realize how badly until I went to the doctor last week. On Saturday, less than 72 hours after starting treatment, I had the most peaceful day I’ve experienced in a year. Everything was easier, like going for a walk, putting on lotion after a shower, reading a book, falling asleep. Any baseline human function now happens on autopilot, requires no pep talk and no recovery time. Because of the gravity of my condition I still have to take it easy for a couple weeks, but I think life only gets better from here.
My hunger is different too— more simple, less voracious.* A hunger that can actually be quelled. I’m relieved to stop constantly thinking about protein and snacks and an insatiable desire for dessert, to not worry if an uncomplicated dinner will leave me hungry in the middle of the night. I had almost forgotten what it’s like to appreciate an uncomplicated dinner.
Tonight, just that. A box of porcini mushroom ravioli I apparently grabbed at the store last week tossed in caramelized shallots and their cooking oil, a splash of sherry, and lots of parsley from the yard. On top, freshly cracked black pepper and shaved Pecorino.
*no, I did not start a GLP1.